The start of this blog was based on the need for accountability. I told myself I would succeed in the Whole30 regardless, and I did, but knowing that others were reading and following along made me hold myself accountable. No one wants to fail at something that is important to them, but doing so and knowing others can see it... no thanks. I knew I had to push through the cravings and hard days both because it was the right thing to do, but also because I didn't want to let myself or you guys down. I need that push again... and so here's what I am doing about it.
We all have busy lives. Some more than others, and some in differing ways. But nonetheless, we all have times where we get caught up in the things we have to or need to get done and the other "want to" items on the list sit on the back burner. For me, I tend to let my work schedule and housework take priority over meal planning and workouts, as well as things like spending a day at lake or a walk through the neighborhood together. I talked with a co-worker about this the other day, and with Jason about it this morning. It's in my nature and personality to be a "doer". I put this self-inflicted pressure on myself to try to solve the problems around me, even if they aren't my problems. I have a hard time saying no (Jason thinks this only applies to everything else in my life and that telling him no is easy, which it's not, just for the record) and often forget to take some time to just relax for my own good. I often find this power struggle happening in my head - where one side of me wants to check off all the things on my to-do list because it makes me feel accomplished and then I can kick back & relax. And the other side wants nothing more than to just enjoy a lazy day or a few hours of blissful nothing, knowing that the "to-do list" and other tasks are never ending. Believe me, I am well aware that this struggle is one most every person, and even more so every parent, probably struggles with. I've said it before and I'll say it again - I believe in a life of balance. A life of both success and productivity, but never losing sight of the little things that need to be enjoyed along the way. So what am I doing about it? I'm taking the next few days to re-evaluate our calendar, pencil in some "us" time, and also make sure the big things are getting handled in a timely fashion. With summer in full swing and only less than 9 weeks before the big day, I'll be damned if I let myself get caught up in the hustle and bustle and forget to actually embrace these moments in our lives.
So keep me accountable, will ya? I'll not only be making a better effort to post more often, but to balance things out. To show you the productive and efficient side of myself, but also the more relaxed and spontaneous side. It's for the better. My mind and body will both thank me. And Jason probably will too. Life's too short... so today I spent my afternoon on the deck, soaking in the beautiful sunshine and being grateful for this incredible life.
